The Desire 2

As I really disect the reasons I have behind the desires I have, there are a few things that come to the front. More than just the sex appeal, more than the shallow desire for excess, more than the power and positioning money can give. There seems to be an understanding of success associated with being rich. I want to be successful. With my new business, the thought of signing my own paychecks is exciting. That is one step in the direction of success and just having a sense of personal satisfaction and accomplishment.

On top of that, there is the idea of just having, and having more. Although shallow, the attention gained from having new, interesting, flashy stuff is a huge appeal. You can get attention from most people by being able to show off. It is the most immature, yet real reason.

This last reason has been something I have realized lately that underlies who I am. In a way it seems selfish and lazy, but in reality it is a desire for freedom and the ability to live without bounds. I want to be financially free, able to live off interest so that I don't become a prisoner of the 9-5. I hate the idea of doing the same thing over and over. I want my life back from corporate America and the ideas behind it. I want to be able to get away and live without the chains that most Americans have. The chains of bills, mortgage, and mediocrity. It is pathetic and I know there is more without being sucked into the endless desire for just having more.