My Relient

Sometimes I wonder why I want so badly to listen to music as I fall asleep. Sometimes it's obvious. In a way, it is a lyrical cuddle [phrase stolen from someone famous], but it is so easy to make it an escape from the thoughts running through my mind.

I don't want to think about work. I don't want to think about my problems. I don't want to think about tomorrow. Is this a bad thing? Should I embrace the mindless splattering in my thought filled world? Or should I let it go? Is it not vital to stop thinking so I can fall asleep?

Honestly, I think it is the latter. You have to know how to turn your brain off. My brain does not have an on/off switch, but I can crowd it with filler so that autopilot takes over. Imagining being on stage in front of all my groupies. Belting out this music I can only imagine I wrote. Life really is a dream.

But until that happens, I'm going to enjoy my Relient K album that I have been enjoying ever since I caught on to the words. Apparently it is about a break up. Apparently I did not listen to it closely enough to realize that at first. And apparently it was foreshadowing. So here I go. Goodnight.