Is it a break I need

Sometimes I wonder if I just need a break. A retreat. A getaway. For a while. It seems (I don't know if this is the right word but...) romantic when a son, a friend, a brother, an ex, a whatever, disappears for a while. Maybe a long while, like a few years before comes back, grown up. Changed, yet the same boy, only wiser, stronger, and matured. I feel I need that right now. I know I've grown up and learned a lot lately, but somehow I feel that I can't be quite that person because of who I have been. It's true I am not who people think I should be, but who I am, yet somehow I feel I can't grow up. People I am close to have seen me every day/week/etc for my whole life. That keeps a person the same. I want to get up, go away, and allow myself to grow up separate of the life I have here. I love it here, don't get me wrong (most of it, to be honest) but once again, I am here needing change. I don't sense a relocation soon, but I think I could use it... at least right now.